A Brief Moment

At the age of 21, it is a lie if you didn't even think a bit about LOVE and what's more, MARRIAGE. Being single at almost 4 years might be a small number to most people, but to me the years might be growing big and big, now 4 later will be 5 then will be what? 10? And I don't see any space I'm giving for anyone to enter. I'm keeping myself guarded all the time, and I do not know when will I bring down the barrier I'm keeping up all this while.
The past relationship that I had is not something to brag about, nor I say it is right but I can say my whole two years are built together with him. He used to be in every second of my life.
And I always wonder, how will my future husband look like? At what age will I meet him? When will we get married? Will I ever come to love the man I marry? Will my future husband treat me like he did? And there it goes every time  every thought will have him in the end. Why, boy? Why are you the one that lingers in my mind? Every love related movie that I watched, every love song that I heard, they have you in it. All the moments that I treasure so much are torturing me now. I used to say to myself, move on, that was only childish love you had and it wont be there long. So 4 years are not long enough for it to disappear? Heh, silly me when I thought that I had moved on while I'm still living in the past. Live well, boy. I'm trying to live well too.

Confession Of A Shopaholic

I have a confession to make.
I spend a lot on some stuff.
And I'm even thinking to spend more and more.
My money, well most of it i lost it that way.
Now tell me, is it wrong for me to shop for what I like?
It was only for books, crafting needs and more books.
(Don't you ever think I shopped for shoes, clothes and fashions. No!)

Next it wishlist, SizzixMachine maybe? And some acrylics blocks and clear stamps.
(my mom gonna kill me if I really bought this)
I need a fortune.

Seriously kids. You guys are getting on my nerve. And you, lack of 'hormat orang tua' ? So, I'm friendly, easy to  get going with you guys, and that make me deserve no respect at all? You are wrong guys. And I'm already regretting this choice. I'm so not going to be nice and bring u around again.anymore. fullstop. 24 hours more, and this will end. till then boys. Now I'm too mad feeling like wanna pop. whatever. GO THE HELL OFF MY WAY.

I Could Use A Wish Right Now

Masa-masa macam ni selalu datang dalam hidup aku.

Masa bila aku tak tau apa yang aku ada.
Masa bila aku tak tau apa yang aku nak.
Masa bila aku rasa tak tahu nak buat apa.
Masa bila aku rasa nak telan pil tidur dan tidur lama-lama sebab kalau nak mati, takut pulak tak cukup amalan.
Masa bila aku rasa nak buat plastic surgery supaya takdak orang kenal aku dan aku boleh mula hidup baru.

Bila aku mula hidup baru, aku dalam situasi nothing to lose. New and fresh with the experience.

Kadang aku tak paham apa yang aku sedihkan, apa yang aku murungkan.

Betapa aku amat hargai kalau ada button END GAME.
Akan aku tekan tanpa fikir lebih panjang.
Butang NEW GAME dalah seterusnya.

Dah,aku nak tido.






GOOD BYE CRUEL WORLD!

Pergi

Walau jauh manapun aku buang kau, kau tetap pernah ada dalam hati aku.

Dan aku baru sedar, selama ni, otak aku menipu.

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Ayat kau sendiri adalah ayat mintak like. Ini adalah paksa secara halus. Ayat mintak kesian. Dan adik, kalau taknak kejar hot, kau takkan buat page pon. Ingat ni, lagi banyak orang suka kau, lagi banyak orang akan benci kau. Ingat tu wahai adik. Jangan tengok bright side je. Everything has bright and dark side. You choose dear. You choose. Jadi, dah buat page bagai, fb account sampai tiga, approve friend request sesuka hati,gambar langsung tak private, kena la sedia dimaki hina, di'fake account'kan dan yang lagi teruk diphotoshopkan(if u know what i mean). And what is worst lagi banyak gambar kau di upload, lagi banyak dosa kau. Silap-silap macam paip air mengalir dosanya. Nauzubilllah. Adik, semoga kau sedar sebelum terlambat. Sama-sama kita menuju kearah yang lebih baik.

Tak Boleh Ka Satu-satu?

Masa ada orang sangkut kat aku, pakat ramai-ramai la pulak.

Tapi bila dah lonely, senyap sepi.

Mana pi habis?


LOL.

Post yang sangat bimbo.